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Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in
with broken wings' LiveJournal:
|Wednesday, April 19th, 2006|
|mack attack dressed in black
count all the scars on the crazy girls back...
so I'm super excited because
#1 I get to leave this hell-hole and go back to where I started; well, the same state anyway.
#2 I get to get away from these whores in this town
#3 and meet new ones on Mackinac Island, because I got a job there. Hooray-amundo. Radtastic, etc.
I hope I meet some rad people this summer. Too bad I'm not 21, there's an irish pub. I'm so fecking excited, I go march 22.
|Friday, March 31st, 2006|
|jeckly feelings in a mixed up world
man, I hate myspace. It's time consuming and addictive, and I never wanted to join the crappy thing, but I fell into a messy mud wraslin' pit of peer pressure, and thusly resulting in the neglection of my dear, dear livejournal. I love you, LJ, I didn't mean to be a homewrecking cheater. So.. I still hate farmington, and my life, but good news, I'm moving, if all goes well. We're moving to texas, so I can have a cool accent. That's pretty much the only reason. Oh yeah, and a school: University of North Texas. It's so depressing though, that I'm just now transferring, I'm still a freshman, and everyone I graduated with is graduating college this year. Dang, I'm a slack attack-er. I sometimes wish I would've started college right away, but the whole road trip the US and being a carnie thing was too much fun to have missed. Anyway, UNT, it sounds pretty rad, I'll have to meet some people on here (not the space of mine). anyway, it's good to be back.
|Monday, January 9th, 2006|
all the things you didn't say
were made up for in countless ways
one cut and I'm done
until tomorrow night
will you come?
my next victim
take a sip
the goblet of lies
it killed you once
but I'm still dying
the cup is drained
wretched queen of lies
today I die
I drown in my goblet of lies
|Tuesday, November 29th, 2005|
|Monday, November 21st, 2005|
There is never any meaning behind my subject field title. Mostly always a random blurb. This is all so random.
Linsay is coming on thursday, I'm so excited. I got a hawt rockin haircut, woot. Good lord, I just said woot. Eric would be so proud. He must not find out. I am officially addicted to the gameshow network, and Eric and I have entered our art in the student artshow, which a reception will be held in its honour tomorrow night at 5:30. Tell all your friends. I have a photograph and a sculpture. Marvelous yay. What has come over me, I do not know. The end.
p.s. long live the torkelsons!! Current Mood: weird
|Monday, November 14th, 2005|
Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm not doing anything at all. Eric has class, no friends, no family.. boohoo. I'll just get ice cream and girly disney movies like the traveling pants or something and feel sorry for my loser self.
|Monday, November 7th, 2005|
So, my birthday is next tuesday. I was so excited because Eric said we could do something extra special for it, since I've never done anything fun for my birthday, and actually, never really had a good birthday.. except the time Derek and I went on a road trip in my crappy car. So, I was way way excited. But now, we don't have any money and we can't afford to do anything, not even go out to eat. He said we can go out to eat when he gets paid, but thats not any fun if its not on your birthday. So, I feel like a douche stick for asking. I feel really selfish, and now that we can't do anything, I feel like shit. I wish I had friends to take me out. I hear all these people with their way fun friends who surprise them on their big day and take them out for a fun scavenger hunt and all over town doing crazy silly stuff. But me, I don't have anything to do. So, me, pour on the self pity, looks like its just me and me.
And 20..that blows.. 20 is the worst age to be, its right in the middle. Can't do anything. Can't go anywhere. Crap. What I want for my birthday: a friend thats a girl (since erics mom thinks im a home wrecking whore if I have guy friends) who is artsy fartsy like me, who actually likes to hang out with me, and isn't some creepy 30 year old lesbian lady with a mustache. (lesbians are okay, just not 30 year old ones with a mustache.) I hate myself today, I'm a lame-o supreme-o Current Mood: crushed
You are a beautiful nymph with glistening skin...
but you think you are disguisting looking. You
have little confidence in yourself and think
nobody cares if you live. You are rarely seen
by humans because they don't accept. No one
accepts you, you think. Tears of sorrow and
loneliness surround you and strangely, your
tears are colored. Your tears, if touched,
brings love and happiness to the one who
touches it because you do not want others to
live like you. Of course your tears don't
affect you. You watch in envy when you see
someone happily spending time with another. I
suggest spending more time with another person!
Who cares if a few people don't accept you for
you are? You should love yourself, because you
are you. Ignore those who make fun... they are
nothing. I'm not saying to be self-centered...
but YOU are the important one you should care
Maybe this'll help you feel better: Rating 5 for my
quiz and messaging me!!! Deep inside you, there's a creature trying to get out... What is it??? (Beauitful anime pics) brought to you by Quizilla
|Friday, November 4th, 2005|
First Best Friend: Stefanie Stephenson
First Screen Name: uglyface1stplace
First Pet: gypsy the cat
First Crush: Jonathan Hayes, met him at a camp ground when I was 9
First Record: Paula Abdul
First Car: 1986 Crysler Lazer ghetto
First Love: my mom
First stuffed animal: a little bunny rabbit that I got when I was born
Last Alcoholic Beverage: your mom
Last Car ride: drove to school today
Last Movie Saw: The lion, the witch and the wardrobe
Last Phone Call made: eric
Last CD Played: Death Cab for Cutie
Last Bubble bath: no idea!
Last time you Cried: on my moms birtday
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
Have you ever been on tv: maybe
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted: yes
Have you ever had a sex dream? yes
Have you ever had sex? yes
SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. thursday shirt
2. converse shoes. red
3. nerdy black glasses
4. striped knee socks
5. diy sxe skirt
6. lip ring
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. ate a salad
2. played a video game
4. drank juice
5. listened to music
FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
5. making things
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. Black or White: middle gray (photography, hehe)
2. Hot or Cold: luke warm
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: swirl
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. travel the world
2. photograph the world
ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. being a liar
|Thursday, November 3rd, 2005|
|Your Superhero Profile|
Your Superhero Name is The Karate Fox
Your Superpower is Mathematics
Your Weakness is Rain
Your Weapon is Your Radiation Armor
Your Mode of Transportation is Dragon
|Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005|
Today's my mom's birthday.. happy birthday mom, wherever you are. I love you.
|Monday, October 31st, 2005|
I can't believe I have nothing to do on this magical day.. I'm so depressed. Current Mood: depressed
I'm so tired. and hungry. and bored. Today is depressing. I love Halloween, but I don't have anything to do. Eric works, and I don't know anyone else around here. I hate it. Arrghh. Peter and Ramona left today, I didn't get to say goodbye. I feel bad, I could've gone to hang out with him last night, but I was playing erics game. I don't know why I play it, I don't even like it, or maybe I secretly do. I was just thinking about ghostwriter. I almost forgot about my childhood love. Man, I was obsessed. When the show came on every day, (twice a day actually,) I'd be ready with my pen and my compsition notebook to write down all the new clues. I even had the workbooks and adventure logs. I loved it. Why aren't there awesome shows like that these days? I remember a few of my favorite episodes. One was about this boy in the olden days who got in trouble for stealing something from his foster parents house, who were his cousins parents, his cousin was a little girl his age and they went on all kinds of adventures together. Well, the boy didn't steal it, and somehow, it was a time travel thing. Jamal found a letter behind one of the wall bricks in his basement. They solved the crime, it turned out to be the coal man. They actually went to meet the girl grown up who was a librarian in their town. Lets see if I can remember all of their names. Jamal, Hector, Gabbi, Tina, Alex, and I don't remember that girl's name who lived with her dad and was a musician. Man, I wish they made those on dvd. That would rock my socks rambo style. I remember the halloween episode too, when jamal's little cousin wrote a story about a purple gum goo doll that came to life, and it really happened in the show. I wish I had something to do tonight. Too bad I'm a loserface. Current Mood: anxious
|Sunday, October 30th, 2005|
my old livejournal is causearuckus if anyone wants to know...
I'm looking for a penpal, much screening will commence. If you find me interesting, and you would like to be my penpal, leave a comment and I'll let you know.. Current Mood: pesky
|im a loser
| || || The Sudden Departure|
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf)
Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call.
You are The Sudden Departure.
You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old "grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes the flesh. And then the toiletries.
We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist" is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties, it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose.
|Your exact opposite:|
Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer
ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber, The Gentleman
CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail, someone just like you
Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: xdalidirlx
This weekend was pretty okay. Eric's aunt and cousin Peter came to visit from Mesa. I like them. His aunt is nice, and Peter is really awesome. Except that he likes this stupid 50 cent song, something about a lolipop at a candy shop. He keeps singing it all the time, its so annoying. But he's cool, he's 22. I wish he lived here so we could hang out with him more. I think he thinks I'm cool, it'd be nice to have a friend. I want to go somewhere for awhile. I wish I could get on a bus and go on an adventure, Eric too. Just for a weekend or so, not too long, but go somewhere strange, like seriously just pick a state out of a hat and pick a random city, and just go. I would love to do that. Thats what I want for my birthday. Yes.. an all expense paid adventure. Speaking of all expenses paid, I entered the roxy design a snowboard contest. I think I did a pretty good job, I don't know. I hope I win, I get to go to a roxy snowboard festival in utah, that would rock, I'd bring my Lindsay person I think. I'm pretty confident, but I don't know what other people did. Here it is.
|Tuesday, October 25th, 2005|
I love this picture I took, its my favorite. Current Mood: bored
|hampster cages and midnight snacks
...scanning... initializing...status confirmed...proceed.
After about five or six years, I decided to get a new lj. I was sick of the same ol' same ol' and I moved anyway, so it's time for a change. I hate new mexico. I miss the big cities, the scenes, the music. The only thing this town has is bowling, country slut dancing at the ta night club, and going to see movies, so thats all I do. I am in love with photography, but theres nothing here to take pictures of but dirt and dirty rednecks. It's pretty discouraging. Plus, nobody will understand why this incident that happened yesterday bothers me:
my dream is to be a photographer for national geographic and travel around writing and taking photos, if anyone has seen the movie Bridges of Madison County with their grandma, they know what I mean. Well, I'm pretty hard on myself, especially about my art, and I'm easily discouraged. Well, I was with Eric at Sam Goody yesterday, and the cashier girl turns to her coworker and starts to tell her, loud enough for Eric to hear and hopefully be impressed, that she suddenly woke up and decided that she, in fact, wanted to become a photographer for national geographic. Hey, if she had said Tiger Beat magazine, or cosmo girl or something, I would've been fine, but the same exact thing I wanted to do. I see how this could seem irrational to somebody, but all my life I've wanted to do or be something, and Lindsay, my sister type person, wanted the same thing, which is expected because we are so alike, except that I like artsy things, and I finally found photography to be my passion, and I was so happy, because I just wanted to be myself.. but being self conscious as I am, it bugs me when someone else wants the same thing. Being a NG photographer doesn't seem like one of the top 10 most sought after careers, does it? Maybe I'm just selfish. But that incident at sam goody has been bugging me, its like I don't even want to take pictures anymore..I do, I really do, I just lost the drive for it, and motivation. Arrghh. By the way, why do girls always brag about stuff when a cute guy is nearby? It seems like they just make up things on the spot to impress a guy. You know, the guy comes up and all of a sudden the girl tells her buddy, extra loud, oh did I tell you about the awesome new glow in the dark scratch and sniff thong I bought today? Gimme a break.
I wish this town didn't suck so bad, all the people here suck, and my only friends moved to Denver. I'm lonely, I don't know anybody. Too bad there aren't any shows..or decent bands whatsoever here. Wish my car wasn't so shitty, so I could drive the 3 hours to Albuquerque. I want coffee, but I mustn't; no, it's pero for me.